YUMINNNN

hm...
maybe its time for a thoughtful entry.
yep..
maybe..
but still, im lazy to do so. sheesh D:
getting caught up in life, and the problems that come with it.. the weights we have to support, the tests we must do, the books we must study, the music we must listen to...
making ourselves feel happier, better about ourselves, blarhblarhblarh.. its all part of life, yes?
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well i guess, i kinda have the mood now. so im gonna carry on with this. yea..

okay, life.. this world that we live in.. somehow im still asking myself from time to time, am i really seriously truthfully alive? breathing through my nose, eating with my mouth, etc etc. signs of life, ya? yes i darn well am still alive. somehow i wonder if it is all a dream. i guess im weird, but i wonder about being alive a lot. you can see that cant you.

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recently, quarrels have happening around me, my friends...
ive been on with jealousy taking control over me, going nuts because of it.. crying cus i dont wanna feel this way but i cant help it.. but again, theres nothing i can do [please dont argue with me,youknowwhoyouare..] im like this, and 10years down the road, i wouldnt be any different too, alright? its just me, i hope you understand that. the talks we had, were kinda pointless werent they? but i dont care. because at least we're talking. if theres a strain, we both know it.. we feel it and see it.. the weird atmosphere today?
repeating myself again, i dont like it when people do things for me when i comment that they dont.. get it? like i just cant get spoilt like this you know? as extracted from jasmin's blog..

Life is weird. God created us and called us his "children". Yet,why does he have to include pain and sufferings to his "children"? Does he noticed that sometimes lifes' ups and downs prove to be too harsh for his "children"? All these,hurt,pain,love,yet relatively have to be part of our lives. Without hate, how can one define true love? Without sadness,how can one tell what that they are feeling happy? Life is revolving around this sick circle where everyone is stuck in it. Life is a paradox and it definitely wont get any better.
[credits to jasmin&yeuai (who i do not know haha i hope you dont mind ya)]

yep, it indeed is so very true. to make it sound a little more unpleasant, we are being played.. played with God's own two hands. yes.. if there is one. sigh. something ive been wondering about..
okay, lets not digress =/


having someone ignore you all of a sudden is the pits, okay? it definitely is.. reason? oh they found a new friend.. someone much better than you. the person doing that, of cus would not feel any hurt.. cus they've got something to replace the person they threw aside.
the last time i counted, that happened to me three times. well i guess now i can say its just 2 (:
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jealousy..the emotion that is ever-so-familiar to yours truly.. lol.

jealousy, defined as

-Fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position.

-Resentful or bitter in rivalry; envious: jealous of the success of others.
-Inclined to suspect rivalry.
-Having to do with or arising from feelings of envy, apprehension, or bitterness: jealous thoughts.
-Vigilant in guarding something: We are jealous of our good name.
-Intolerant of disloyalty or infidelity; autocratic: a jealous God.

in chinese, chi chu? yep. somehow you feel strongly the sourish feeling inside your heart. perhaps thats why the ingenious invention of the eat vinegar thing.. yep.
i guess, mine would be the first reason. hah.. definitely hah... oh well.

being jealous of your parents showing more affection to your sibling then to you? is short-term. i repeat, short term. cus you get numbed seeing it as time goes by. but for the case of friends/people youre very attached to, its so different!
dont you see the difference?
urgh. dont feel like touching on this topic.

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what else did i wanted to say.. oh i forgot hah.
jasmin says she loves me so i love her too haha. girl you gotta be strong ya!
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went out with the 2jasmins today.watched meet the fockers with toh&bindy&jamus hah.. my first nc16 show woots i believe its their first one too :)

urm did a lil math and played a lil pool at kpool. haha its been long since i played. my aiming just sucks la.but somehow i kinda seem to be loving the SPORT more? hah. i still dont understand why snooker is a sport la! -.- okay pool is close to that anyways. but billard is like so hella cool! i wanna learn heh but i gotta train up though..
after the 22of nov.. after that very day.
:)


my cousin, sis and me on nationals day

the young&the old. :) jordus' haagen daz!

i didnt know my calendar had this thing. how cool is that (:

my current superb read!

wanling thinks that this ball is cute. haha.

honk if youre horny haha


my computer is acting cranky urgh
dammit i gotta go do some work. tata people.
i feel that my thoughtful entry is not so in depth yet, right? doncha agree val?
oh hecks

ps : about my friendster account, i dont really give a hoot anymore. some memories arent meant to be kept. *shrug* byebye memories. byebye my friendster friends (a couple of em) byebye my 614testos.
somehow i dont feel any regret.
so please, its really okay. okay, bindy?

posted by yumin :D @ 7:55 PM